I am Grateful

I am so grateful that mommy elvz tagged me for this. It is an honor to acknowledge the things that we are grateful for. Thanks so much mommy elvz.



I am grateful because...

1. God gave me a wonderful family to love.
2. God has been faithful in providing our daily needs.
3. God's grace is sufficient to forgive my sins and saved me from eternal condemnation.
4. God has loved me with an everlasting and unconditional love.
5. God has blessed me with a loving, supportive parents, family and friends.

I am passing this on to Phebie, Jacky, Bogie, Eds
HOW THIS WORKS:

1. Re-post the picture on your blog and pls. acknowledge where it came from. Kindly leave a comment on this post so I would know you've posted it.
2. Write down 5 things you are grateful for and the 5 bloggers you are tagging.
3. You may copy this or write your own quote regarding gratitude:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

Who would not be grateful knowing God has plan for each of us? God is Good all the time.

10 Facts About Myself

Got this tag from my ever dearest cousin Phebie. Thanks a lot for tagging me. I have done one like this before so again here are some facts about me:

10 Facts about myself:

1. I am older than my husband.

2. I am the 4th in the brood of 8. We are all girls by the way.

3. I work in a call center now.

4. I am a funny person and I laugh easily.

5. I am was raised by my aunt.

6. I love my family so much.

7. I was a devout Marian before I became Christian.

8. I am just a very simple person.

9. I am beginning to enjoy blogging. :)

10. I would love to reunite with my old friends.

Viral Linking

My friend Phebie tagged me for this viral linking. Thanks Phebie.

I have checked Jenny Talks and decided to join this fun and controversial linking.

Here it is:


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Rules:
1. Copy paste from {Start Copy Here} to {End Copy Here}
2. Please link back to the person who tagged you and PASS this tag to many of your friends
3. If you have more than one blog, please post this to all of your blogs, the more the merrier.
4. The use of NO FOLLOW on links is not allowed, Let's all be fair!
5. Remember to come back here at JENNY TALKS (pls. don't change this link)and leave the exact post url so I can add you to the master list to help increase our rankings and improve our Technorati Authority.
6. Spread the virus.. oooopps I mean the VIRAL LINKING and happy blogging!

BLOGGERS:
#1. Scraps & Shots #2. Simply Jen 3. This and That 4. Fab & Chic Finds 5.A Slice of Life 6. Jenny Talks 7. Tech Stuff Plus 8. Food on the Table 9. Aussie Talks 10. When Mom Talks 11. Moments of My Life 12. My Crossroads 13. A Life in Bloom 14. Because Life is a Blessing 15. Digiscraptology 16. BLOGSILOG 14. Cherry's Comfort Zone 15. DigiScrapz: Captured Memories 16. Buzzy Me 17. Fab Finds, Etc. 18. Thinking Out Loud 19. Wishing and Hoping 20. PRC Board Exam Results 21. Jobs Abroad 22. My Blog Portfolio17. Race Corner 18. Mommy Talks. 19. Home and Health 20. All Kinds of Me Stuff 21. Ink Baby Studios 22. The Salad Caper 23. Winding Creek Circle 24. Aggie Scraps 25. Momma Stuff 26. We Are Family 27. Gandacious 28. Busynessworld 29. Folcreative 30. Swanportraits 31. Rumination Under The Clouds 32. Consciously Think 33. Sprawt 34. Healthy Skinny 35. Geekyology 36. When Mom Speaks 37. Rumination 38. Amiable Amy 39. Captured on Time 40. Pit of Gadgetry 41. Me and Mine 42. Little Peanut 43. Creative in Me 44. Around the world 45. Pea in a Pod 46. For the LOVE of Food 47. Music of My Heart 48. It’s Where the Heart Is 49. Blog in to Space 50. A Mothers Horizon 51. Simply me 52. Whats Up 53. Comedy Plus 54. Lovin' Life 55.Ozzy's Mom 56. Apple and Candie 57. I was once lost in love 58. Pinay in Love 59. Pau's Big Thoughts 60. Twisted Angel 61. Hailey's Beat and Bits 62. Living A' La Mode 63. Bits and Pieces 64. Honey and Daisy 65. Pinay Ads 66. Great Kingkay 66. It's Naptime 67. Lisgold 68. Signe Says 69. Thomas Web Links 70. Thomas Travel Tales 71. Nita's Corner 72. Great Finds and Deals 73. Nita's Ramblings 74. Batuananons 75. Filipino Online Community 76. Healthy Living and Lifestyle 77. CompTechGadgets 78. Nita's Random Thoughts 79. Make Money Online 80. Erlinda's Wandering Thoughts 81. Kitty's haven 82. This and That 83. Shoppaholic girly 84. My Life in this Wonderful World 85. My Online World 86. Joys in Life 87. Journey in Life 88. Tere's World 89. Jean's Live it Up 90. Muzikistah 91. Maharot 92. SUPASTAH! 93.Life is a constant journey 94.Amazingly Me 70. Treeennndddzzz 96. otwarteInfo’s 98. AdventureSage 99. in-Tech Revolution 100. LovingMore 101. From Melissa's Desk 102. denz Recreational 103. Network of Combined Ideas 104. Sheltered Not Shattered 105. Mommying on the Fly 106. Me, Myself and Darly 107. Stay at Home Mom 108. Harmony in Motion 109. My Happy Thoughts 110. Mommyhood is Thankless 111. Life is Random. SO.I.AM 112.Life's sweet and spices 113. Rainbow Colored Me 114. My Oweini Life 115. All About Mye Life 116. Is it Bedtime Yet 117. Super Coupon Girl 118. My Life.... My Journey 119. Project Wicked Blogs and Reviews 120. Life According To Me 121. WilStop 122. I Love Pixels 123. Cellulitic Bliss 124. Underneath It All 125. Momstart 126. Pinaymama's Diary 127. My Heart 4 Him 128. 1StopMom 129. Random Chronicles 130. Maeyonnaise 131.Blessings in Life 132. Survivor Mom 133. Sharing my Thoughts 134. Beautiful Language 135. Medical Updates 136. Living in One Income 137. Mommy Elvz 138. elymac&frendz 139. BeinG mYselF 140. Love's Haven 141. Your Blog here

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Anybody can try it. Even you! Consider yourselves tagged!

Fantastic Four Meme

Got a tag again from my friend Phebie.

Here’s the rule: Click copy/paste, type in your answers and tag four people in your lists! Don’t forget to change my answers to the questions with that of yours.

4 places I go over and over: Church, Work, Aklan, my parents house.


4 people who email me regularly: Zarj, Anza, Baby center, Jiezl

4 of my favorite places to eat: Tokyo-Tokyo, Hungry Hippo, Binalot, Jollibee


4 places you’d rather be: Canada, Singapore, Boracay (Aklan) and Cebu


4 TV shows I could watch over and over: Friends, 7th Heaven, Oprah, Myx ( I don't have time to watch tv na eh)


4 people I think will respond (let them know you tagged them):

Amor
Glorie
Bon
Eds

Jeremiah 33:3

Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.

Jer. 33:3

I am just sad since our schedule was changed and I had to go to work tonight and won't be able to be home tomorrow morning to prepare my kid for school.

For the past 2 weeks I have been trying to review my 4 year old son, Adie, for their forth coming exam on November 27 and 28. He is now in Nursery.

I had to make sure that the review is fun. I have been making reviewers for him to answer, and I also incorporate it to our games and time together so he wont be pressured so much.

The examination will start at 8:00 am and that is the only time my shift will end. While here in the office, I texted my husband to review Adie again for the last time.

I also told him to read him Jeremiah 33:3. That is my favorite text in the Bible during my college years. Whenever we have examination, that is the bible verse that I chant before the start of every exam.

It worked well for me!

Wonderful Christmas Give Aways

I am starting to join contests on blogs and I found another contest while I was EC hopping.

Here is a contest from Wonderful Things in Life.



Here are the wonderful prizes that they are giving away:

FIRST PRIZE - $35 + 16,000 EC
$25 - My Online Paradise
$5 - Blessing In Life
$5 plus 1000 Ec - Moi et mon univers
*1 banner - worth $149 - Buytemplates.net
*1 blog layout - My Web-Blog Designs
*cuties for Christmas - So Cute
5000 Ec plus 125x125 ads space for 1 month - Snapshot
3000 EC - Stranded Life
2000 EC plus banner ad for 1 month + text link for 1 month + ebook for bloggers- Kasakk
1000 EC - Crimson Heaven
1000 EC - Heart Random
1000 EC - More on Health
1000 EC - Jenny Talks
1000 EC - Sharing my Thoughts
125x125 ads space for 1 month worth $20 - Contest For Bloggers
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Shopping Blog

2ND PRIZE - $25 + 13,000 EC
$10 - Follow Your Sense of Adventure
$10 - Yennygirl
$5 - More on Heath
*1 banner - worth $149 - Buytemplates.net
*blog layout - The Designer's Chic
3000 EC - Sweetytots
2000 EC credits plus 1 month ad space - Pink Hues
2000 EC - The Joy Of Love Forever
1000 EC - Show Me your Interest
1000 EC - Days Of My Life
1000 EC - ArticleSnatch Blog
1000 EC credits plus 1 month ad - Random Chronicles
1000 EC - The Artist In Me
1000 EC - Varun's Vagaries
125x125 ads for 1 month worth $20 - kahpeng.com-Bits From My Life
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Another Contest

3RD PRIZE - $20 + 11,000 EC
$10 - Wonderful Things In Life
$5 - My Life's Adventure
$5 - Twinkletoe Writing Space
*complete blog makeover - Designs By Vhiel and Cans Of Thoughts
*Website logo worth $99- Custom Logo and Marketing Materials
2000 EC - Sweet.Pretty.Naughty
1000 EC plus ad space for 1 month - Cheth Studios
1000 EC credits plus 1 month ad - The Positive Side
1000 EC - Show Me Your Interest
1000 EC - Wiehanne Lounge
1000 EC - Medan Daily
1000 EC - Call Center Gal
1000 EC - A Simple Married Life
1000 EC - Programming The Life
1000 EC - Pinay Freelancer
125x125 ads for 1 month worth $10 - Genrya.com
125x125 ad space for 1 month - That Blog 4 Me

4RTH PRIZE - $15 + 9,000 EC
$5 - Life's Imagination
$10 - The Joy Of Life Forever
1 Blog Template worth $29 - Website Design Services
2000 EC - E-Pamilya
1000 EC plus ad space for 1 month - Thoughts and Obsessions
1000 EC plus banner ad for 1 week - Simplement Belles
1000 EC - Show Me Your Interest
1000 EC - 24x7 Online Diva
1000 EC plus ad space for 1 month - Made Me Glad
1000 EC - Serradinho Blog
1000 EC - God's Best Gift
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Sherry
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Travel blog

5TH PRIZE $10 + 7,700 EC
$5 - Earning Money Online
$5 - A Message From My Heart
1 Blog Template worth $29 - Website Design Services
1000 EC plus banner ads for 1 week - Kalidadis
2000 EC - Wonderful Things In Life
1000 EC - Definitely MAYBE!
1000 EC - The Joy Of Life Forever
1000 EC - My Life's Adventure
500 EC - Love's Haven
500 EC plus ad space - MeiYah/Miah Laborte
500 EC - Chica & Pumuckl
200 EC - Around the World
125x125 ad space for a month - Also Mommy
125x125 banner ad for 1 month - PriZK Dot Com

6th PRIZE $5 + 6,000 EC
$5 - Designers Blog
1 Web design/flash template worth $29 - Flash Template
1000 EC - Life Marriage And Kids
1000 EC - Everything plus the Kitchen Sink
500 EC - Brown Pinay
500 EC - A Message From My Heart
500 EC - In The Eyes Of The Beholder
500 EC - Nierva Dot Com
500 EC - Blog Contest For Pinay
500 EC - Creative In Me
500 EC - Cheth Studios
500 EC - A Zone for Digiscraps
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Dashing Smiles
125x125 for 1 month - That Blog 4 me

7TH PRIZE - 4,500 EC
*1 Web design/flash template worth $29 - Flash Template
1000 EC - One at a Time
500 EC plus 125x125 ad space - Biz-N-Honey
500 EC - Twinkletoe Writing Space
500 EC - My Little Home
500 EC - Journal of Journey
500 EC - So Far, So Good
500 EC - There is Happiness
500 EC plus ad space - Musings of a Pinay Blogger
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Thomas Travel Tales
125x125 for 1 month - Travel Blog

8TH PRIZE 3,500 EC
*1 yr domain - Earning Money Online
500 EC plus ad space for 1 month - The Money maker
500 EC - CharTherCT.com
500 EC - Vhiel's Corner
500 EC - Anything and Everything in Between
500 EC - Love's Haven
500 EC - EastcostLife
500 EC - Contest For BLoggers
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Bohol Paradise
125x125 banner ads for 1 month - Pinky Posh

9TH PRIZE 3,000 EC
*blog layout - My Collection
500 EC plus ad space for 1 month - Starts at Two
500 EC - Aha Mama!
500 EC - Twins happiness
500 EC - A lonely planet it is not
500 EC - Nita's Random Thoughts
500 EC from Bits Of My life
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Filipino Online Community
125x125 banner ads for 1 month - Only In Silence

10TH PRIZE 2,500 EC
500 EC plus ad space for 1 month - Beauty Of Life
500 EC - Nita's Corner
500 EC - Days Of My life
500 EC - Little Soie's Steps
500 Ec - I Travel here and There
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Batuananons
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Love Is A Perfect Gift

10TH PRIZE 2,500 EC
1,500 EC - Seek No More
1000 EC - Nesting Buddy
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Love Is A Perfect Gift
125x125 ad space for 1 month - A Message From My Heart



Consolation Prizes
1. 300 EC - Healthy Living and Lifestyle
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Life's All About

2. 300 EC - CompTechGadgets.com
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Erlinda's Wandering Thoughts

3. 300 EC - Arts and Entertainment Center
125x125 ad space for 1 month - Thomas Web Links

4. 300 EC - Great Finds and Deals
125x125 ad banner for 2 weeks - 24patrol

5. 300 EC - Make Money Online
125x125 ad banner for 2 weeks - Multiply Themes
6. 300 EC - For the LOVE of Food
125x125 ad space - Jocelyn's Journal

7. 250 EC - Genrya.com
2 weeks link ads SimplyWP

8. 250 EC NetzDesigno.com
Footer text link for 1 month worth $5 - Genrya.com

9. 250 EC Stacykoay.net
Footer text link for 1 month worth $10 - Bits From My life

10. 200 EC - it's A Woman's World!
Footer text link for 1 month worth $10 - Contest For Bloggers


Special Prizes:
1. Free Icon set - Custom Icon Design Services
2. Semi-solid light red toddler hat, fits approx 2t-4t - Cherish Sweet Knitted Bottoms
3. 1 book - My Funny Dad, Harry
4. 1 book "Princess Charming" by: Jane Heller - Just Say These Words
5. 1 book "Siren's Song" by: Trish Albright - Just Say These Words
6. 1 book "Weddings Can Be Murder" by: Christie Craig - Just Say These Words

How To Enter:
1. Blog about the contest with all the Prizes and Sponsors.
2. Subscribe to my feed via email. ( you can see it in my sidebar)
3. Put the logo contest in your post.
4. Choose one logo for your side bar.
5. Leave a comment along with the link of your post.

A Powerblog Award

Thank you so much mommy ruby for these wonderful awards.

The Power Blog for The Blog




and The Cute Blogger Award for The Blogger



I am passing these awards to

Glorie at Fit4all - and I trust her to give it to all the deserving blogs she knows.

dNeero

dNeero

Two Awards in a Row

I am very much thankful for these awards from my new friend Phebie (have not told you yet that I love the name Phoebie and have been using that as my pseudo name before.

The Wonder Woman Award




and

The Smile Stone Award




Thank you very much. Good thing about these awards for our blogs is that we have to pass it along. It's like paying it forward. We really cannot give what we do not have.

So I am passing these awards to my new friend:

Amor. Since you have been in the blogosphere for quite sometime, please pass these to those deserving blogs that you can think of.

BDJ Planner 2009 Giveaway

I have was blog hopping and found Milet's blog






She was thankful for all those who have participated on her previous contest and because of this she is giving away two BDJ PLANNER to two lucky blogger who would blog about this contest and answer this question.

Here is the question. What are the names (please include the url) of my her four blogs?

Here is my answer:

1. Surviving LUPUS
2. My Two Cents Scribbled on the Web
3. dramas of my life and
4. Momie Space @ Momies Pace


This contest is open to all. She will be shipping it via AIR21. If the winner is residing outside the Philippines, she will send the planner either via FEDEX or postal mail. One blog = one entry.

After blogging about the contest one must leave her a comment with a link to your entry and also include where the planner will be shipped in your comment.

Winners will be announced on November 30, 2008.

I like to move it, move it...

Adie loves watching Madagascar (1) DVD and enjoys the game on it as well. So when Madagascar 2 was shown I know we had to watch it too.

We also love collecting these toys characters and we were just glad McDonalds premium of the month were the stars of Madagascar. I have bought 7 of them, butI still lack one. I do not have Marty yet.

Yesterday, I have asked my office mate Marky to check if the McDonalds in their place still have Marty since the Mcdo in our area no longer have Marty. I kept on telling him, “Please check Marty the Zebra ha”. Again and again and again. He then told me, “Ang kulit ni mommy. Oo nga hanapin ko si Marty, yung Zebra.”

He left. After an hour he texted me, “Mommy, la na daw po silang Melman.”

Hehehe…he really made my day. :)

Congratulations to my newly wed friends.

I was so excited to wake up last Saturday morning. Two of my friends were married on that day. I was invited to attend both weddings. Although it was hard since both weddings were set on the same date plus they were scheduled at the same time.

I am just glad we were able to attend both weddings.

Again, congratulations:

Joseph Velasco and Racquel Acosta-Velasco and Jay Escamis and Jeizl Cua-Escamis.

I am so happy for I know and believe that it was God who brought them together to be one in marriage.

A Cute Blogger Award

Another Cute Blogger Award from Jacky. Thank you so much. I really appreciate this.

Here are the rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged, need to write ten facts about themselves. You need to choose ten people to tag and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and also to read your blog.

Now here are my ten Random facts about me:

1. I was a working student when I was in college.

2. My first job after I graduated college was a Shift Manager at Jollibee Foods Corporation.

3. My long time showbiz crush was Ian Veneracion. But now, I really like Ryan Agoncillo.

4. Unknown to many, I have always been "madaldal". (Most people think I'm shy).

5. I love to sing but I do not have a nice voice.

6. I joined a dance contest in TV when I was a kid. ( Star Smile Factory)

7. I am not tall and pretty but I have won 1st place in a beauty pageant when I was in college. hehehe...

8. I really love watching clouds.

9. I love to eat. My husband told me I am "matakaw" (LOL)

10.I hate plastic person.

Now its my time to give this award to :

1. Mommy Elvz
2. Myraine
3. Ms. Recipe
4. Joy
5. Eds
6. Ruby
7. Sunny
8. Mariz
9. Jasmine
10. Ems
11. Honney

Name Game continues...

My husband’s friend came to our house earlier together with his wife and their daughter Teekie (pronounced as TK). After they left, hubby asked me, “Do you know why their daughter’s name is TK?” I said no. He said “They used to work in Toy Kingdom and that’s where they met. This made them decide to name their kid Teekie.”

He then told me, “We should have named Adie (Sean Deanniel) “JB” for Jollibee, that is where I met my husband. I then added jokingly, “Then we should have named Andie (Mathea Deanne), “BB” for Boracay Beach, because that is where she was made. LOL.

Another Bloggy Award

Premio Dardos means "prize darts" in Italian. This award is given to bloggers, in recognition of their cultural, ethical, literary, and personal values transmitted in the form of creative and original writings.

The rules of this award are:

1. Accept the award and post it on your blog along with a link to the person who has awarded you. Mine was given by my sister in Christ Sunny
2. Pass the award on to at least 5 other blogs that are worthy of this acknowledgment. Remember to contact each of them to let them know they have been chosen for this award. I want to give this awards to the following :


1. Glorie@Fit4all
2. Wendy@From the eyes of my heart
3. Liza@Liza's Eyeview
4. Maicel@Simpledelight
5. Phebie@Loves Haven
6. Amor@Amor's Personal Website

Forgive but not forget?

I was cleaning up my email last night and I have found and re read some emails that made me sad again. Those were the emails from my “hacker”. It has been quite a while now and I am just glad it has stopped.

While reading the emails I still can’t believe that it has happened. I am still hurt. I have already forgiven that person but I still cannot forget what has been done. How can you forget something that has caused you so much pain? That has caused you trouble? I no more hold grudges against that person. And I have accepted the fact that we can never be friends again – well, maybe someday. I guess I can forgive but still cannot forget.

Can you really forgive and forget?

The name game

I was tagged by Mommy Maicel and asked how I came up with the names of my kids.

SEAN DEANNIEL

My husband’s name is Sean. I love that name and he wants to have his first son named after him so that’s were we got Sean. I wanted it to be biblical as well. I love Daniel but I changed the spelling to Deanniel.

MATHEA DEANNE

Since our second child’s a girl, hubby wants it to be named after me or at least have the first letter “M” as well. I looked online and found Mathea which means Gift from God and I did not want Deanniel to be removed but I changed it to Deanne to make it feminine.

Duplicate Account

I was blog hopping the other day and I found a blog that say he found a person that has 3 personal blogs but the entries are all the same. It made me smile, I do not know if he was referring to me.

I have 3 blogs. My first blog contains lyrics of my favorite songs. It was the first my first blog. I do not want to write anything on my blog then, so I just decided to just put in the lyrics of my favorite songs.

Then, I have decided I would want to start writing things about anything. My wordpress blog was my second blog. But I find it easier to blog using blogger so I decided to open this blog and make this a mirror blog.

I still do not want to close my wordpress blog since I have learned to love it. But I am not gonna post this entry to that blog. LOL.

I have been tagged

Jacky tagged me...

Here it goes:


A. Attached or single ? --- Attached
B. Best friend? --- Sean
C. Cake or pie? --- Cake
D. Day of choice? --- Sunday
E. Essential item? --- computer (w/o this i can't blog.LOL)
F. Favorite color? --- red
G. Gummy bears or worms? --- worms
H. Hometown? --- makati city
I. Favorite indulgence? --- sweets
J. January or July? --- July (bday of my son, and our wedding date)
K. Kids? --- 2
L. Life isn't complete without? --- My Lord, Jesus Christ
M. Marriage date ? --- 07-11-07
N. Number of magazine subscriptions? - none
O. Orange or apple? --- apple
P. Phobias? ---- insane people walking around the streets. i was attacked by an insane person before.
Q. Quotes? --- The worst pain in life is when the group of people you know turns into the group of people you knew
R. Reasons to smile? ---thinking of God's blessings - my family.
S. Season of choice? ---- summer
T. Tag 5 people - annz ,amor ,umma ,glorie, maicel
U. Unknown fact about me? - i am a very transparent person
V. Vegetable ? --- squash, sitaw, okra
W. Worst habit? --- i cant think any? LOL
X. X-ray or ultrasound? - ultrasound
Y. Your favorite food(s)? - sweets, adobo, pancit
Z. Zodiac sign --- i think its Leo

A Perfect Wife

Ephesians 5:21-5:33

Being submissive to my husband has always been my problem since I got married. I know that I should submit to my husband since this is what the Lord commanded me as a wife.

I have a strong personality and I am stubborn. Sean does not want any conflict so he would often times just give in to my wishes.

Sean and I had a very interesting past. We worked at the same company and he was my subordinate before which makes it harder for me to submit.

But I love Christ and I know that it is wrong for me to continue disobeying His commands. And I also love my husband.

I have been praying about it. I read and reread Ephesians 5 to remind me every now and then that this is the will of the Lord.

God’s ways are perfect. I believe that He allowed me to find the Wives’ Biblical Submission online. I am still on the process of practicing the things that I am learning in that study. Little by little I know I will be able to learn to submit with all of my heart.

I love my husband and I know that God will equip me to become the wife that He wants me to become. God is not yet finished with me. I will not give up for I know that God will not give up on me too.