Sunday, August 31, 2008

Me and my son's favorite song

Look at me Mom

Look at me mom
Shining like the sun
Bright as the day
You're my number one

And there's no treasure
That i will cherish like you

And when i smile
They all see you glow
And they all know
You're my number one

My one and only joy
Is to give you my love

My one love for you
I give through and through
I see you and the signs that bring joy
That all the world can see so clearly

Look at me mom
Shining like the sun
Bright as the day
You're my number one

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Falling in Love

Have you experienced falling in love? Can someone really fall out of it?

What is true love? I have asked myself that question several times. La Rochefoucauld quotes, “It is with true love as it is with ghosts; everyone talks about it, but few have seen it.” I do not believe in love at first sight, because I know that it takes time to finally realize that you are already falling in love with the person.

I have had some relationships with other men before I met Sean ( Sean is my fourth boyfriend). I am proud to say that I have learned to love before. Sean knows the names; he knows the stories behind these men. He even asked me if I love still love them, I honestly told him yes, I told him I will love them for the rest of my life - for I have loved them with all of my heart.

Love as to life, has different facets. I will forever love them but on a different level. True love never ceases. Each story may not have ended the way I wanted it to end, but I know that what happened was even better. We all have different lives now, each has moved on and that is more important.

I will always love and admire them. There will still be a day that I will think of them and their family and hope that they are happy. I will still pray for them, and hope that our paths can cross once again.

For all of my tears, disappointment, pain, and happiness, I thank them and I thank God for allowing me both the chance and the ability to love with such intensity and sincerity. I don’t know what the future holds, but I am forever better because of what they have taught me.

I have found the love of my life. I am happy now. We have declared the love that we have for each other when we got married - to love each other more and more everyday and to fulfill and seek the plan that God has prepared for us.

Do not be afraid to fall in love. Love is still the most wonderful gift a person can give and receive in this lifetime.

It is better to love and lost, than to have never loved at all.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Count your Blessings

I am blessed with so many things that I have to be thankful for. But there were times when things really fall apart. And whenever I am depressed the first thing that I would do is to remember to count my blessings. Here are some of the most unforgettable miracles and answered prayers from the past that I have received from God:

1. I don’t hate math but I not really good at it. I did not have any failinf grades in math but I don’t excel in it as well. College Algebra finals, our Professor said that the exam would be from cover to cover. I was a working student then, so I really do not have time to study that much. I was very nervous to take the exam; I knew I was going to fail. I just prayed. Then, our professor came in. We were puzzled when he started reading names - my name was there. He then announced that the names he mentioned were exempted to take the final exams! Hurrah!!!

2. I could not understand the lessons in my Statistics class. We're a very large class and our professor could not entertain all the questions that we have. It was really hard for me. I prayed about it. Did some “sit – ins” on my friends' statistics class. After the end of the semester my final grade for Statistics was 1.0!

3. It was the start of the semester; my mentor asked me the plan that I have for that semester. I told her I still wanted to be part of the Dean’s List. She asked me what final grade I would like to have after the end of the semester. I told her, I need to have a final grade of 1.5. She told me to pray for it and study harder. I prayed about it. At the end of the semester, I got hold of my class cards and my final grade was 1.5.

4. I was a working student when I was in college. I worked at Mc Donald’s Restaurant as a service crew. Whenever I see our crew trainers training new hired crews, I envy them. I couldn't help but wished I could also be given the chance to train them. I promised I won’t just teach them the Standard Operating Procedures but I would also teach them how to love their work and put their hearts on it. I want them to not just work for money. I told myself, I would just wait till I’m promoted as a crew trainer. A week after that, I was not promoted yet, but my manager asked me if I could train the new hires. Now, that's miracle!

5. I was the Stenographer of the Year 1995 in my high school. When the medal was given to me, my mom whispered to me “Sana maulit ito.” I prayed that I could get my parents to come up the stage again in college graduation. Talking about miracles? Recognition day 2001, I was awarded two medals. My mom and dad came up the stage to award them to me.

6. Due to some conflict of opinions, I decided to resign from my work. I knew I would find another job in no time. I submitted my resignation paper but I was not allowed to resign. I was just told by my manager to take a month leave and to think things over. While I was at home resting, I could not really decide whether to stay or to just look for another job. I prayed about it. I asked God to give me sign if I should stay or go. Just when I have decided to leave the company, I received an SMS from my colleague asking me to come back. He also said that I need not worry since the Team Manager was already replaced. The new Team manager called me and asked me to come back.

I have learned that we have to be specific in praying so that we will know exactly when these prayers are answered. I still have so many things to be thankful for. I always remember that no matter how big my problems are I need not worry for I have a bigger God.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Unborn babies

” I felt guilty but I thought it was better than having another child that will only suffer because we have no food,” a woman said in an interview in a slum on the outskirts of Manila after having an abortion. The rate of abortion has increase here in the Philippines according to the recent surveys. It is already twice as high in Europe they say, but of course abortion is legal and easily accessible there.

Whenever I hear stories of abortion my heart is shattered. I can’t imagine how they can do things like that. I know they have reasons of their own, but I still could not think of a reason valid enough to merit abortion. Though there are cases when the child has to be removed to save the mother’s life.

One article note: “LONDON, February 1, 2008 ( - Seriously disabled children should be considered non-persons and would be better off having been aborted, according to a Peer speaking in the House of Lords Tuesday. Attempting to couch her assertion in terms of children’s “rights”, Molly Baroness Meacher told the Lords that children born with severe disabilities are “not viable people”.

It’s actually them that I pity, not the child that they abort. Sure these kids were already taken away the right to be born, but they are all in heaven anyways - a better place for them to stay. But the parents are still here on earth alive and being eaten by the guilt of what they did for the rest of their lives.

The greatest destroyer of peace is abortion because if a mother can kill her own child, what is left for me to kill you and you to kill me? There is nothing between. - Mother Teresa

Friday, August 8, 2008

Married life

I have just attended the wedding of my two good friends, Kris and Aimah. Congratulations to the both of you. I still remember back in 2002 the time when I used to be their match maker. Now, after all the hard work, they have finally reached the day they have been dreaming of, to be with each other for the rest of their lives. It was a great wedding. Simple yet you can feel the love that they have for each other and the support of their family and friends.

The Bishop who officiated their wedding gave them insights as to what to expect in their married life. He told them there will be hardships, fights, troubles, problems. But these are all parts and parcel of being married. He also advised them that there will come a time when they will fight and will decide to leave their house. He urged them not to return to his or her own parent’s but to go to their in – laws house instead. I thought of it and it is really true. Our parents know us so much. They know how we react to certain things.

It is also true when they say that you don’t just marry a person, you marry a family. It made me realize how blessed I am for having wonderful in – laws. I am very much open with my mom in law, even though they live far form us. I love them and I know that they love me too. She never failed to remind me how much she appreciates me and the things that I do for our family. She is also very humble and never forgets to tell me and my husband that we are doing a great job raising her grandchildren. Which is just so wonderful to hear. It’s more than a trophy to us.

I am glad because I can talk to her and tell her anything under the sun. We like the same things and agree on some issues most of the time. Oh, how I missed her. Good thing she will be visiting us soon….